The Universal Shifts of Consciousness

"Everything is an illusion and Real is only the Creative Force, but the Creative Force is created from illusions with a lot of pain, pain, pain."

1) and 2) are the pictures of Gorky St. in Moscow (major street) in 1950's, I lived at the very end of this street and spent considerable part of my life in Russia here. These are official pictures. In reality there were 20 times more cars and people especially in later years.

4) A Russian artist on one of the central streeets of Moscow in 1950's

 

   

                                                                     Vatican                                   Rome                         Pisa, Italy

1) This is the picture of John at my home in Sydney in 1982, who was my sponsor to Australia. He passed away a few years ago;

2), 3) and 4)  I am with my pet Cockatoo Tishka in 1982;

http://abcnews.go.com/International/Story?id=4137162&page=1

Reporter's Notebook: What It's Like to Swim in Subzero Temperatures

REPORTER'S NOTEBOOK By CLARISSA WARD, MOSCOW

"Welcome to Russia, where temperatures regularly plunge below freezing for four months of the year. To survive the cold here most people bundle up, but a select few strip down. They call themselves "morzhi," or walruses, and their passion is swimming … in subzero temperatures. At least every week, and as often as every day, these enthusiasts plunge into the icy depths of frozen lakes and rivers.
Morzhi claim that there are enormous health benefits to ice swimming. They say it improves circulation, helps with arthritis and rheumatism pains and rids the system of toxins. They also claim it can cure the heaviest of hangovers. For the most part, morzhi are very health conscious. Most don't drink or smoke and in some cases even have rules that forbid people from drinking before dunking.
"It gives you vital energy and strength," a devotee called Sasha told me on a chilly morning on the Moscow River. She was wearing nothing but a wet swimsuit as we chatted and I asked her whether she was cold. "I am warm, I am warm," she insisted. I told Sasha that I was planning to try dipping my toe in to see what it was all about. "The first time is horrific, but then it's normal," she assured me.
It was with some trepidation that I had decided to find out for myself whether these morzhi are enlightened or crazy. I bought a short-sleeve wetsuit, partially so as not to frighten people with the sight of my white flesh after a Moscow winter, and partially because I was concerned that my internal organs might shut down upon contact with the water. I had spent the week reading horror stories on the Internet about hypothermic shock and panic attacks and the sensation of not being able to breathe properly.
Watching the men and women, old and young, fat and thin, jog, casually into the water and splash around gaily, I suddenly felt rather foolish for my fears. It looked almost fun. I walked into the water purposefully and waded forward. At first it felt like little needles pricking my legs. Then, as the water got higher, I felt something like dizziness. I realized that I was making slightly strange whooping noises and that I was by now almost skipping through the water just to keep moving. By the time the water was just above my navel I decided that I had experienced enough of the icy waters for my first experience and I rapidly retreated to the changing room."

1) I and Robert (before the age of 12 months) on a skating ring in Sydney in in 1985;
2) Robert on roller skates with my tennis racket;
3) Robert and I are underwater;
4) , 5) and 6) pictures of our water training in the pool in Sydney;



I started training Robert to skate, rollerskate and swim before the age of 12 months: we've been doing it together. Teaching him and learning myself, thinking 'it was good for him'; 'he would have an early start' : simple maths , encyclopedic knowledge , reading.
Negatives were after Robert to molest him right from the start. I had a lot of bad publicity through media after trying to sue this pedophile, for molesting Robert and other children. Unfortunately we didn't win the court case. Government paid 'social workers' were constantly getting on our nerves with constant threats to take our child away from us if we continue and they nearly did. The Australian government (the criminals) took the matter to court and we had to pay a lot of money to legal profession to fight the case and to leave my child with me!!!  
 You can't sue a pedofile: your child can be taken away from you by a court action as a result. NWO and those who are supporting them would always find the reason. I've seen the same things have been happening in many families: children were either missing or taken from parents by a ficticious 'laws'. I was waking up real fast and had no desire to continue my child's training. Now I know that I was programmed to get into all that mess right from the start.
Robert could not really concentrate, something was not quite right : he could read, but couldn't understand the meaning because he was too young. Now I know how alien was this idea: to teach a baby 'encyclopedic knowledge'.
I should've spent more time on giving more love to the child and not the useless 'encyclopedic knowledge', which turns a child into a robot, a machine. And this has been so popular among the public. With the help of movies and TV contestants would compete in how much useless encyclopedic 'information' he or she would spit out like a robot and the winner will be rewarded and admired. The same thing I've been watching on TV in many countries (inc. Russia) for 55 years. Like Credo Mutwa, I understood that whenever we, humans achieve something for our benefit, Negatives (aliens and humans) would grab it and make us to use it for their selfish goals, for power over others.
This is how Robert, or rather his numerous Alters, looks and behaves now.

My experience with Inorganic Beings (Low Astrals). This article you will find on the link:
My Thoughts and Thoughts of other Writers

Distortion (esp. the face, the dog and right arm) is created by Negative Low Astrals (Inorganic) Beings when Robert is being attacked. These attacks could also be done electronically to distort your Energy body. On another picture Robert doesn't seem to have arms at all and on the 3rd picture his legs and arm are distorted.
"When you take a picture of a violent person or just people quarreling with each other with digital camera, you would see that the persons face and figure becomes distorted beoynd recognition, even pieces of the body seems to tear off. That is an indication that he/she is being attacked by Low Astrals, whom you or others can't see, esp. those who quarrel. The use of camera can stop violent people, because Negative Low Astrals don't like to be pictured. 

This is what happened to Robert: his achievements were quickly used by the Negatives, esp. the ability to sleep in water! But at the same time if you know that everything, I mean everything including all kind of tortures of the physical, mental, emotional and other bodies of a human being are not done without a full approval of your Total Self in a victim-victimizer mode. These days a former vampire, a power lover, who used to kill people, life is easy: he can just turn into a Christian and start giving lectures and sell his tapes and be free to roam around, but deep inside he didn't change and still hostile towards human females, whom he raped, killed and whose blood he, literary, used to suck out of them. Gullible people are listening and police is not in a hurry to jail him, but others are jailed for just insulting someone. And the real reason for 'exposing' illuminati is that time is coming when you would not be able to hide anything:everyone and everything is going to be exposed automatically, so now illuminati are preparing everyone to the things they used to do, to make us to get used to the idea.


You can watch Bill Schnoebelen part 1 and 2 on Youtube, it is interesting for me, but too religious:   
Exposing the Illuminati from Within. Part 1 - Bill Schnoebelen
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-2134284036772812990&q=schnoebelen&hl=en
 
I am also giving a few modern websites and articles on water deliveries and water babies at the end of my story for those who are interested and yes, some mothers are more comfortable with it than others, but I was not, because of the things which happened to me before/at the time/after the water delivery. Nevertheless I continued watertraining of myself and my son for a few years against a lot of opposition from 'doctors' and media, because I was doing it my way and not the way controlled by Reptilians. Here is a video, which is available for those who are interested and all the details how to get it are at the end of my story.
My carreer in media was completely ruined for good! It was the time of great depression for me. Inspite of all my efforts to protect him from Negatives, Robert was following my and my mother's pattern and became an Abductee , Mind - Controlled Sex Slave, a Remote -Viewer (a Spy), a Montauk Boy and had MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder). I didn't know then that that was Robert's Total Self's decision. Like Arizona Wilder, Robert wasn't doing well at school, like Cathy O'Brien, he didn't have close friends inspite of all his efforts. Aliens have been attacking both of us big time! Vaccinations also had devastating effects on Robert, which showed up later.
There is also one more, but favorite trick the Negatives use on awakening mothers. They trigger the mentally sick Alters of their children to show them up in front of the mothers, to give mothers constant emotional pain, keeping the bright and capable Alters to work for the Negatives and away from parents' observations. Each one of us has a variety of Alters of different capabilities and all of us have, at least one, crazy Alter. That crazy Alter makes mothers /fathers think that their child have a permanent brain damage from all the horrific things, which were done to the child. But the parents don't realize that there are other Alters their children have, mentally healthy and bright. There is also a huge group of helpers and healers on a higher level (we are visiting that level when falling asleep), who are constantly regenerating humans at night for a hard day on Earth (more on that in R.Monroe's "Far Journeys" and "Soul Journeys" by Rosalind McKnight). The Negatives were deceiving me this way for many years, keeping me upset and in a guilt state seeing the drastic change, which happened to my child in later years. The situation reminds me the dark side of the Moon! The dark site of the Moon is artificially turned away from us at all times, this way we would never see what is really going on the other side of the Moon (unless you astral travel there the way R.Monroe did).
This is what is happening to our children: only one side is turned to us - his/hers, artificially created, crazy Alter, the rest of our child we don't see.
The Moon is the biggest alien-human military base in existence; mind-controlling installations have been built there to control Humanity on Earth. There is so much material on Internet, which would tell you that. One I can recommend is the book called "Defending the Sacred Ground" by Alex Collier. Parts of it is on our link Alex Collier info , you can download all of it (the address is there).
    
I've taken Robert from school when he was 12 to avoid more compulsory vaccinations. That gave both of us freedom to explore East coast of Australia from Cape Tribulation (North Queensland) to lake Entrance (Victoria). I drove Robert by car for thousands of miles, two of us visited so many places when Robert was still a child. I love nature and wanted Robert to see it instead of sitting in a boring classroom for half of his years, the way I did.
Robert's Mind control showed nasty signs. One of the techniques Mind-Controllers use on him is called 'Gringer" and it's well described by Stephanie Relfe:
"After we removed these 20 commands, we also did deliverance on: something in his mind called a ‘grinder’ which does a very low, continuous zap to other people at all times. A very low level energy vacuum, to suck energy off others (thereby making them not want to hang around him." Robert still has this "Grinder" and I don't know how to remove it, except him willingly becoming a Sun-eater.
Later I've been analizing: "Why most of my and Robert's life has been connected to water, even my husband's work?"
From 1995 to 2001 my husband was engaged with building and testing submarines in the Pacific and building Flight Simulators for airports. The administration at work was treasuring him for his many talents, precision, logic, hard work, organizational abilities and ability to handle all kinds of people. For some unknown reason me and Robert were allowed to have lunch with him at work. We also were allowed to see the Flight Simulator when it was ready.
But at home my husband was different (another Alter). I remember how difficult it was to insist on having electricity and the telephone line turned off over night to have a rest from it, till I succeded at last (he, a Master Degree in Electronics, was constantly against it). I was reading in R.Monroe's biography how apprehensive of professionals with diplomas Bob became in his later years. How stubborn in their not always right or noble views, sometimes, they were; how little practical and spiritual knowledge most of them had; how mind-controlled and selfish some of them have been. How hard it was for me to persuade my husband to buy and read powerful books or videos from USA and England for my Alternative research. He would always say :"We don't have money". But there were always money for entertainment and unnecessary things. He was an ultimate Mind-Controlled slave and lived always by the rules of society (even if it went against any logic).
Robert, as a child, was psychic and had a photographic memory, trained by aliens. Once I asked little Robert :" Why are you touching your penis all the time ? " Robert answered : "Because someone is constantly touching it ", but there was noone around (Low Astrals and humans, from a neighbouring dimension easily can do it and much more than that, using their ability not to be seen, being in another frequency). And I've noticed that many young and old males are doing the same, then I connected the dots. Looks like Low Astrals in the neighbouring dimension are preparing us for sex real early.
This was my first real syncronicity in 1994: I ran into a book with a face of a Grey on the cover. It was placed on the stand in front of a "Chemist" shop in our area of Castle Hill, Sydney. The name of the book was "Communion" by Whitley Strieber: that book started my research on UFO's and abductions .
In the end of 1995 I found out about Robert Monroe and started reading his books, then all 5 Montauk books by Peter Moon and everything I could get on Philadelphia Experement, then Alex Collier's "Defending the Sacred Ground" and all his lectures on video, all "Matrix" books edited by Val Valerian, David Icke's "The Biggest Secret", Cathy O'Brien's "Trance-Formation in America" and many other books. The more I've read the sicker to my stomach I would become. And I thought: "Why do aliens hate us so much? What have we done to them? All the authorities, teachers, governments were deceiving me all this time? How stupid I was to trust them! Why was I asleep? Things like "aliens eating us like we eat chicken" and a websites like www.manbeef.com would make me bedridden. In those days that website was selling human meat with recepies how to cook it (later they changed it to selling sex). I found the answers to my questions later myself. Like many others, I've been through most of the materials (books, magazines, videos and audio tapes, CD's, DVD's ) from Val Valerian's Leading Edge, Robert Monroe's Institute, William Buhlman's website, David Icke, Credo Mutwa, Arizona Wilder, William Cooper, Carlos Castaneda, Robert Moaning-Sky, Brice Taylor, Barbara Bartholic, "Inner Earth" magazine and all the books about Hollow Earth ,"Nexus" magazine and "Nexus" conferences and all kind of other workshops.
But I didn't be     LIEve that I could start my own website and that I have a lot to say: discouraging Wernicke's commands, installed into the Wernicke's part of my brain (secretly) have been doing a pretty good job to keep me asleep. My awakening made things worse: aliens, neighbours, my husband and my son, former ' friends' or just people everywhere were attacking me every day and I often was attacking them. My husband never believed a word I said about Robert's and my abductions and other things. Later I would read about the same situation with other people who was waking up and it was giving me a boost of energy to keep the struggle for my Awakening.
In 1995 all 3 of us flew to Los Angeles, hired a car and drove around all California with Disneyland and part of Nevada, Death Valley, Las Vegas (stayed in the Pyramid hotel), Mt. Shasta, Yocemite National Park , Lake Tahoe (all the favorite places of Illuminati, which I found out later), where Robert's mind-control have been reinforced behind my back. For some reason I was very interested in Death valley, but when we got there I was disappointed: there was nothing much to see there. On the way to Los Angeles I had food poisoning, I was so bad that I thought I would never see Australia again, but somehow managed to avoid hospitals. Food has been a favorite mind controlling factor used by Controllers on their slaves. Over the years I noticed how much I was manipulated through food.
In 1998 we went to South America: Argentina and Brasil. The reason was to see a 'famous Brasilian healer' who, we thought, could help my husband to restore his hearing, because I couldn't help him. That was a new experience for us.
I found an article about the 'healer' in "Nexus"magazine (subsidised by Rosacrutians), read a recommended book, watched the video on the subject, found Sydney person connected to the 'healer', who gave us very little information how to find the 'healer'.
We flew to Buenos-Aires first and then to Brasilian capital Brasilia (there were no direct flights from Australia to Brasil). The city felt very dry and very negative, like Canberra in Australia. Finally we found Abajiania, the village, in Central Brasil. 'Healing centre' devoted to Jesus was built next to it. Their winter was extremely hot with no natural running water, pretty much like deserts in outback of Australia instead of expected lush Amasonian vegetation. Couple of small hotels were built for the tourists like us. We were suppose to spend a week there and all we were doing was to stand in long queues to see 'the healer' and buy their 'blessed water'. Occasionally 'the healer' would demonstrate his 'talents' to the gullible people. The place felt very negative. In couple of days my husband's and Robert's behavior became strangly hostile towards me, like they've been possessed, hypnotised, programmed to do things, which I never saw them doing.
Then it dawned on me: the whole set up was for milking the energies and money from the sick and the last thing they wanted to have was someone like me. Everything looked like a fraud. The idea of kissing Jesus' picture and drinking their 'holy' water didn't appeal to me. George and Robert were steaming, didn't want to leave that place and it took me all my might to get them out of that shithole! I think they've lost part of their souls in that place: they've never been the same since.
Then we flew to Iguazu Falls (sounds like iguana), the biggest in South America. I was really impressed by the power of it. Wild racoon's of Iguazu Falls were so entertaining and so unusual for me. I maveled at their ability to walk on metal tubed fences without falling into the Fall. Feeding them with fruit was a real treat for me. The picture of the Falls was breathtaking! I had the same impression from Niagara Falls. Iguazu Falls is on the border with 3 countries: Brasil , Argentina and Paraguay. I saw working Minions, heaps of them (people with animal soul), on the border between Argentina and Paraguay. They looked like ants, walking one after another, like a chain, carrying some boxes on their backs over the bridge from one country to another, an endless flow of slaves. I got very unsettled, like it reminded me something, maybe myself, in the past life.
I remember Robert Monroe described this kind of people of South America. I forgot how they were called. Smoking was permited everywhere: planes, public transport, casinos, theatres, shows etc. I felt I was exposed to some electronic weapon and had trouble to breath. Narcotics were legal and very popular. The atmosphere of Brasil and Argentina felt negative and like in Russia: people's life had no value. The biggest river close to Buenos Aires was as filthy as a garbage tip. I was thinking how could people still survive in those places?
From 1996 to 2000 my husband was transfered to work in one of the coastal surburbs of Sydney. I used this opportunity to break the monotony of life in Castle Hill (I felt like I've been jailed in there) and went with him and Robert 2/3 times a week to explore Northern, Central, Southern and Eastern beaches of Sydney. That was a really good time. The beaches were magnificient! Robert and I would spend days and days of swimming, observing the locals, examining rock formations and remnants of alien civilizations of Lemuria near the ocean. I was surprised to find so much evidence there. Things like huge pieces of rocks welded together by rusting metal, rocky floors with geometric designs and other interesting findings right on the beach and not just in Sydney, but in most coastal and mountain areas of East of Australia. Thoughts were flooding my mind: "Why am I here and doing this explorations, maybe I'm somehow connected to these civilizations? Who left these marks and why noone writes about it in the magazines, books or newspapers?" These areas were totally different to where we lived.
Over the years I experienced a lot of poltergeist activity in our house, which we built with my husband. I thought that that could only happen in very old houses, but it seemed to follow us wherever we would go. Some invisible entities were constantly breaking things in front of my eyes (or making Robert or me to brake them 'accidently'), pushing with force me or Robert or doing other weird things. Robert and my husband have been mind manipulated to become my constant guilt generators of 'you are a bad mother' comments, dragging me back into the Game, which I didn't want to play. And I would tell them: "I am a bad mother/wife, then go and find a good one, the door is opened!" (what my mother used to say to me, when I called her a bad mother. The same programming). What I discovered later, that as a results of constant tortures we had in that house, a portal to another Universe has been created.
Aliens have been using the same tricks on all of us for generations. Some writers described the same things, which have been done to them. That was a relief: I wasn't the only one in this situation. I had all the necessary material things, but it didn't make me happy and reading Monroe's books was like a remedy for me. I tried to go Astral with partial success. My arms or legs would float, but not my body, feeling that I was touched, pricked or squizzed at day and at night, feeling being dragged by the feet almost out of my body, someone invisible was pressing hard into my Heart or Crown chakras and simultaneously turning my energy body into a semicircle. I still don't know what it all means. I often have been stun-gunned into my 3rd Eye chakra before falling asleep with such a force, that my body would shake violently and the whole room would lit up for a moment. Sometimes I felt that someone was trying to use my vocal cords, because the words which were coming from my mouth were not my usual words (too sophisticated) and I still don't know whether it was one of my Alters or some entity trying to use me as a channelor. I used Monroe's Gateway a lot then and couldn't understand why others could and I couldn't go Astral? I envied them and was so upset that I could't meet R. Monroe, before his transition from this Earth. The same happened with other writers: Carlos Castaneda, William Buhlman etc.  By the time I was able to meet them they were either off this planet or the workshop would be cancelled for some unknown reason. "Why am I constantly late?" I was asking myself. That looked like a set up. Also, it wasn't always financially easy for me to travel from Australia to USA.



I joined Monroe Institute as a member, got Gateway CD's and tried to persuade my husband to build a Check Unit at home because I couldn't afford to go to Monroe Institute at that time. But he built a floatation tank instead. The project failed, someone, definately, didn't like that the idea of a Check unit at our place. I connected to some of Australian members of Monroe Institute but eventually lost all the connections. My husband was constantly acting on me: some aliens (positive and negative) have the ability to mesmerise us and they would never give up!

I remember in 1996 all 3 of us had a colossal car accident on New England Hwy near a few ancient Pyramids on New England Hwy in NSW. We were moving from State of NSW to Queensland when my husband lost consciousness while driving in high risk zone of the Hwy and hit another car. Me and Robert miraculously had no real injuries, but my husband suffered the most: his head, leg and side had wounds. Our car was crushed beyond repair. The ambulance arrived twice and twice I had to sign the papers that I was my husband's personal doctor (though I never had an official diploma) and took full responsibilities for his treatment. As soon as we got to our Queensland's home I started applying compresses with his own urine and ozone. In 2 days George could walk with crutches and another 2 weeks without them. He was alright again without any intrusion of 'medical personel' or 'hospitals'! We both were amazed. Most of us don't believe in our own healing powers and I didn't till then. That gave me a lot of confidence.
I also loved dancing, esp. ballroom dancing to the point of obsession. Being tall and looking like a man (often) it was hard for me to find a partner and, finally, I did. And as usual I had to become a coach and a leader in dancing (though a male suppose to be the leader in ballroom dancing, but often it's a female (reminds me "Daffny, you are leading again!" the role Jack Lemmon played in "Some like it Hot"). I couldn't help it: it was in my blood. I remember how, after many months of training, my parther and I went to a Russian Ball in Sydney to see how Russians party and to dance. We had a big success there.   

Council's meetings in 1999-2000, Castle Hill, Sydney, NSW (state of New South Whales) and Public Forum on Cloning of Human Beings on 29 March, year 2000 in Can-beer, capital of Ass-tralia.
 
I know now that problems we all experiencing are created for us, to overcome them, to build ourselves up and win/graduate this Game. But in 1999 I was still heavily involved with the Game. I learn as I go.
This is an interesting case, which helped me to make a gigantic step in my personal evolvement. 
We had a lot of trouble with the local Council. The land we bought was a part of an easement for the creek, part of a buffer zone in case of flood and we didn't know it. This block was illegally approved for sale by the Council and being sold to us (me and my boyfrind and future husband). We were naive and didn't know about buffer zones then and built our dream home on a steep bank of a creek. Life in Sydney and life in our house were becoming a nightmare with rapid expansion of suburbs around us. Each time I would come to the Council and ask about a buffer zone which was supposed to divide our, very narrow, strip of residential land from industrial zone on the other side of our house, the council officers would get confused and fearful: because we were that buffer between residential and industrial zones.
The Council was across the road of our house. Later I found out about many other dirty deals corrupted councils of Sydney were doing.
Once George and I were puzzled to learn that our house was considered NON-EXISTENT for 15 years, inspite of us paying Council's fees every year. We found out about it at the Waterboard (gov. organization in charge of water supply of Sydney) by accident, when we wanted to get license for a bore on our land. The 'mistake' was immidiately corrected. Our house was approved by the Council many years before that incident. After 20 years our house nearly collapsed into the creek: the Council didn't allow us to built a retaining wall in the creek to stop the erosion of the bank where the house was built, conviniently forgetting that it was built in Buffer Zone for the creek.
For us it felt like a set up created by the Council to torture us. They created a cul-de-sac, pushed us into the corner. There was no way back for me, but to go forward and start fighting the Council (against my husband's will, he had undescribable fear of authorities). That struggle turned from the personal matter into a political one (surprisingly for me).
 I gained a lot of knowledge from reading alternative materials by 1999 and became more confident in understanding the political situation on Earth. Knowledge is Power, how very true! It gave me the power correct the injustice done to us. My husband learned how true humans can fight modern plagues. The heavy Mind-Control was broken and I started doing the technique "you walk, you talk" (Alex Collier suggestion), giving people a hint of what you are reading about. After collecting enough evidence and remembering things which were happening to me, my son
and others like us.
I had an appointment with the Local Member of the Parliament (MP) first. The door was kept opened and his secretaries could listen to our conversation (they were sacked later). I told him about being abducted, about constant use of my body for sex slavery and for production of fetuses, I told him about human meat for sale, about dishonest  actions of local council and much more. I asked him what he was going to do about it? His face became white:
I thought he was having a stroke, but he quickly recovered looking very frightened. Scared of me? I didn't expect that: I had no gun, just papers proving a few things! He said that he couldn't do anything about it. Then I went to see our Federal MP and told him about Reptilians eating our children, about aliens raping us as little children in order we would rape each other in the future and other things and if he could do something about it. And the same thing happened again: an expression of fear and confusion on his face. Then I realized that both MPs knew and participated in the things I told them about. They knew that long before I turned up in their offices. They wouldn't occupy positions they had otherwise. I was still a naive Lightsider. But one thing is when you read about it in the books and another thing is when you experience it.
The pressure from the Council on us became even greater. They wanted us to vanish from the face of the Earth, but my Total Self had other plans.
During Council's meetings people who had problems with their Councils had an opportunity to present them in writing as well as in a form of a speech at one of their meetings with public. It is all a theatre for a gullible public. Well, our problem was presented in writing (my husband) and in speech form (me). I had to overcome stage fright and an emotion of hopelessness. While giving a speech I made an interesting observation. When I was talking about our personal matter, the material thing (the house), there was an absolute silence in the audience of about 70 people. It felt like being in the vacuum, no reaction, like I was talking to nobody (strange feeling) and that made no effect on anyone.
I couldn't understand what was happening. Like something different was expected from me and I didn't do it.
But as soon as I started speaking to the audience about Reptilians and them eating us, like we eat cows, everything changed: I felt life around me again, the audience woke up, the mayor and his helpers were shouting to stop me from speaking, the microphone was getting hiccups. But I tried to shout as much as I could. At moments like this I don't feel any fear, instead I get an enjoyment and encouragement out of it. I noticed that I was making speeches at the Council better without the fear of my husband. Later I was amazed that nothing happened to me and I wasn't put to jail. At home I started getting dreams of doing the same in other dimensions: shouting about Reptilians at Councils. It was like a Ripple Effect. Then I remembered my mother. She was doing similar things in Russia only I went a bit further: from personal to political.
My fear of any Parliament/Council and other political organizations has evaporated overnight! After a few of such speeches Council satisfied our demands. They even built a retaining wall at their expense, allowing us to sell our place and move to Queensland permanently. I gained a lot of experience as a result of this struggle.
I remember straight after one of the Council's meetings I was talking to a big group of kindergarten teachers of our area in front of Baulkham Hills Shire Council chambers. I told them about Reptilian invasion of our planet and that aliens rape and eat our children alive. I was astonished by the total indifference and hostility of this group of these alien 'women'  except one female. I know that female was a human female, because her reaction to my words was a shock. Emotional torture was written all over her face. It looked like I triggered some of her memories. That moment it dawned on me: most of females who were working in kindergartens were of foreign energy, not my energy. And what I was reading in  "The Biggest Secret" and other books was true! And it's not just happenning in the former Soviet Union, England or USA! It's happening all over the World including Australia.
In year 2000 our Federal member of the Parliament published an ad in the local paper about Public Forum on Human Cloning in March (year 2000) in Canberra with an invitation for everyone to attend and give a speech. That was the final Forum (after a similar Forum in every State's capital of Australia). Well, I decided to attend and give a speech on the subject (I've learnt a bit about cloning by then). My husband was against this idea, but didn't want me to go alone  (without his supervision). Robert was interested and joined us (though quickly disappeared from the Main Hall of the Parliament when I was giving the speech, to be reprogrammed behind my back). When, at the Parliament House, I was surprised to see a familiar face of our Federal MP and tried to talk to him during a break, but he was running away from me, kind of hiding among people (looking scared). I was puzzled: I didn't mean any harm. There were lots of people at the Forum: 15 MPs at the long table, many scientists, doctors, clergymen, representatives of different companies interested in manufacturing clones, financial reps, legal profession, journalists and just people interested in the subject.
I prepared a speech, but some electronic attack was used on me to prevent me from talking in the Hall. This destructive energy was so overwhelming, that I couldn't memorise what I had written, I couldn't concentrate and the time was quickly coming to the end of the Forum. My husband was doing his share of disruption. I was the last speaker.
Then I ignored the written material and said things which I didn't expect myself saying: about our Creative Powers , that there was nothing we couldn't do (R. Monroe), about why we came to Earth and where we were going after, that we were immortal, that we really didn't need Clones and other negative things. The speech was spontanious! And that is exactly what aliens and those who are helping them are scared of : Spontaniaty! I didn't speak about Reptilians this time, though I knew that the Parlament was full of them. I'm sure that most of the people in the Hall at the Forum were non-numans. At least the audience didn't try to stop me from speaking, I didn't have to shout and nobody was shouting at me this time !
In a few months we managed to sell our place and              left Sydney (NSW) for Queens-land , where we bought some land on Eastern coast near nudist male beach. It was also next to Turtle rookery (part of National park), where big sea turtles were laying their eggs. Our block of land had a circle of enormous rocks with a rectangular flat rock in the centre, it was big enough for a couple of humans to lie on. It looked to me like a forsaken, sacrificial site of the past. I didn't like the idea and with a help of a bulldozer had it dismantled. Low Astrals were definately not happy about my idea and the Hell broke lose: another fight with a local council. This Council was full of Reptillian females (I didn't know it then) and mind-controlled neighbours started giving us constant troubles. I planned to organize a spiritual centre. But everything from the start was manipulated into a failure and I thought: " Why? Wherever we move we are attacked by councils, neighbours or just people around us? And wherever we were searching for a new place, nothing felt right in terms of energy? "I didn't know then that Queensland was a Reptilian State, occupied mostly by aliens and Australian language sometimes reminded me some Reptilian dialect (depends who is speaking to you in Australian). Many times in Queens-land areas I heard how Reptilians talked to each other on a tennis court or at the Market when they were in a state of fear to be recognized. The same language was used by my son when his body was occupied (posessed) by Low Astrals and that Astral being (not my son) would give us a scandal.
I knew from R.Monroe books that we never die and life on higher density was much more interesting and rewarding.
I felt tired of constant struggle with everyone (inc. Robert) and started losing interest in life, which ended up with an unsuccessful attempt to suicide. I thought that drowning would be an ideal choice: the ocean was next door. I had no experience of how to suicide by drowning: I needed a manual. I swam further into the ocean from male nudist beach, but forgot to tie a rock to my neck, didn't want to return to the shore and started drinking water to become heavier     (usually I float like a cork). I spend an hour drinking salty water and trying to sink to the bottom (but the water was leaving me through the bladder), till I got very cold on a hot sunny day. I got bored and swam back to the shore only to find a naked man with erected penis standing in water and smiling at me. It made me disgusted and to run into the bush.
Now that incident makes me laugh (and, perhaps, my Total Self too). To my surprise it's not easy to die. That proved me one thing: if your Total Self doesn't want you to die, you wouldn't, no matter how much you try.
After many years of being a Lightsider and sharing my Knowledge with others who were not ready for it I finally gave up. I didn't know anything about the Law of Allowence and the Law of Attraction in 2001.
My husband was more of a Lightsider and Robert was becoming more of a Darksider. I didn't have anyone to share my knowledge with, it felt like living in the vacuum. I always hoped how nice it would be if all 3 of us evolve together.
How very alien this idea was! Everyone is different and has their own pace and time of Graduation from a Game like that, which I found about the hard way.
One positive output of those years was that I've learnt how to explain the most complex ideas in the most simple form in English and in Russian .
Since we moved from Sydney to Queensland's East coast after the age of 17 Robert's body and memory started rapidly deteriorating. It could be a multiple reason : the result of the replacement of the natural physical body with a cloned one and with only a part of his soul, the constant tortures from aliens during abductions, detrimental effects of vaccinations, like triple antigen (when he was just a tiny baby) and also the place we moved to. This part of East coast of Queensland is so damaged by past nuclear explosions that remnants of ancient fortresses are of charcoal colour (black). Fused together, melted and then cooled rocks are thrown all over this region. There is so much radioactivity coming from this place. Only Reptilians can flourish here and there are heaps of them around. In 8 years living here my and Robert's bodies became deformed.
We tried to sell the house and move out of this area, but again some negative force was interfering with our plans: it was impossible to sell the house; the history was repeating itself (like in Castle Hill, Sydney). But it must be the reason why I'm still here.

Elliott Heads were we settled down is an Anomaly place: the result of ancient nuclear explosions of the East Coast of Australia  (see more info on our link  Anomalous Events  on this website).
In 2001, in Elliott Heads I saw 2 suns: one was setting down behind the fields as usual; the other one, a Ghost Sun turned up 20 min later just above East coast of Pacific ocean in Queensland, where we moved. The sun above the ocean looked like a huge light blue circle of a ghost sun with blue rays in the form of wide, separate strips radiating from the centre with an empty spot in the centre) on pinkish-lilac background. You can see something like that on a painting maybe. IT WAS SPECTACULAR! My husband and Robert saw that too. That lasted for 10-15 min. And later it happened again in the same place a few times. I was wondering if anyone else saw what I've seen. Maybe it was Sun of 4th Density or one of parallel realities? I still don't know how to explain it. The same happened with moons. I saw 2 Moons and showed them to my son, but I don't remember exact year, only know that it was after year 2000. It looked so artificial, like in a movie. I also have seen the Fabric of Time in Elliott river mouth.
In that very powerful for me year 2002 my family (3 of us) took a World trip , 9 countries: Darwin - the capital of Northern Territory (State of Australia), Bali-Indonesia, Singapore, Russia, Finland, Ireland, England, Canada, USA, New Zealand. We never done it before and were very excited about it. Strangely enough Robert didn't want to go, like he sensed something bad in advance, but my husband insisted (I was wondering why? Maybe because positive aliens like to do everything together, compare to us, who, quite often have to do many things alone). By reconstructing these 3 month's journey I was trying to see the signs of my progress as a result of the unbearable stress.
First stop was in Darwin. There is a new movie now called "Australia" which is worth watching. In 2002 that place felt very negative to us. By chance, near Darwin, in National Park's waterhole we met a group of Russian males led by a young couple: male and female. They were military personel only without uniforms. I was so happy to speak to Russians and told them a few things about aliens. Immidiately their behavior changed. They became reserved, this is so typical of Russians who are here on an assignment. What they told me, that they've been transporting military forces from country to country and a duty of the Jewish couple was to watch these people and the operations and report to their bosses. I thought: " That's interesting! Could they belong to special forces I was reading so much about?"
Things have changed. To have a female, and also a Jewish one as a leader of Russian males was unthinkable in USSR 40 years ago.
Next stop was Bali (Indonesia). We landed at night (this is so common to the tropical regions), which made me think that that was the reason, because aliens were hiding a lot of stuff in the ocean, which can't be seen at night. The hotel we booked and payed in advance was dreadful and I didn't hesitate to tell the owner about it. I don't know why but he was scared of me like hell. I was surprised to see so many statues devoted to reptilian Gods (more than in Europe), they were all over the place. Indonesians don't kind of hide, that they worship Reptilians in their real form. We hired a driver to show us around the island. Minions (these humans with animal souls, sometimes, they can be unbearable, depends what their microchips are triggering them to do). With their souvenirs for sale, they were pestering us everywhere till I put a stop to it by screaming at them. The driver told me that I was merciless, even cruel, towards those 'poor' people for not buying their useless souvenirs. Then, for the first time, I replied that I had both sides in me: positive and negative. The terror was written all over his face: he looked at me like I was a Dragon. That was significant: these words coming from me for the first time amazed me, because they meant Balance, but the idea of Balance seems shocking to many humans, which I found later. Coming closer to Balance made me very happy. Now I realise that there was a connection between Secret Societies' members, they made sure that we would be attacked in every possible way and we were and not just in Bali, but through the whole journey. Then we visited Russia and Finland were bizarre mindcontrolling techniques were used on me and Robert driving us out of our minds. Next stop was England, London.
After reading the book and watching a video "Alternative 3" I was a bit worried about Hiss-throw airport in London where people always had troubles or disappearing all together. It is an Anomaly place like Pine 'Gap' in Australia.
I always tried to avoid Heathrow airport as much as I could, but the flights there were arranged specifically to make some people to disappear into other timelines, so to get from Ireland to Toronto (Canada) we had to go via England, and change planes in London, because we were told that there were no straight flights. Plane from Dublin to London was a bit late, but we still could get on the plane to Toronto where our luggage was sent. We were refused to board the plane and asked to wait in another Terminal. The situation was annoying. The terminal, the female at the counter, the interiour of that building looked odd, there were NO PEOPLE, no any other personel in this very busy airport.
I thought how strange the whole situation was! It felt like it was deliberatory staged for us, but why?
Hiss-throw airport has a few Terminals some parts are very old, some are new. Everybody heard about a building of a new Terminal 5 section in that airport later and a mess they had there for many days: this is not new. As usual, I had to play a role of my husband's and my son's protector and a saviour and take everything into my hands. Someone was playing tricks with us: we were sent from Terminal to Terminal for couple of hours, then asked to wait for a few hours in this unimaginable chaos. Then, all over sudden, we were told to rush to the last plane to Toronto for that day. Reminds me modern unnerving hick ups at the airports all over the world (for humans, but not for aliens), when people are discouraged to fly by selling them unrelable tickets, days' waiting and sleeping at the Terminals, sudden closure of airlines, refusal to return money for the tickets, loss of luggage, money or documents and other prearranged problems.
When we reached the Terminal we discovered that the passengers of ALL FLIGHTS had to go through ONE CHECK POINT. I've never seen anything like this in such a busy airport. That created a very long queue looking like a huge herd of cows and made everyone very nervous. First, the handles of our luggage were smeared with some kind of jello
(I thought it was either biological or chemical weapon). Then the queue had to split into 2 lines to get through the next 2 security points. We had very little time to catch the last plane. The fork separated us: I went with Robert into one line, but my husband moved alone to another one for the examinations of ourselves and our hand luggage. In this crazy situation, while collecting the hand luggage, he forgot his wallet with all our tickets, money and documents in one of the x-ray machines. But we noticed it too late. Meantime we were galloping miles through the tunnels full of people like 3 mad cows, just to get in time for the plane. And when we finally reached the Departure Gate, we discovered the loss of the tickets and I sent my husband and Robert to run back the same distance to the check point hoping to find the lost wallet (I was a slower runner). But after waiting for sometime I decided to run back in the same direction. I've lost both of them, but reached the same check point. When I asked one of security officers about the wallet with our tickets, money and documents, he said that he'd never seen it. I was devastated! Then that same sense of hopelessness I experience occasionally. I thought that it was the end of the world, that we lost everything and sure that we missed plane again. My emotions reached the peak and I started screaming and ran to find a superviser. He sent me back to the security officer who was holding our wallet in his hands. The same place seemed a bit different though. I didn't have time to waste and ran back finding my husband  and Robert 'by miracle'. Then, again 'by miracle' we got on the plane to Toronto. When I looked at the watch: the whole 'incident' took 15-20 min., which was impossible. Running alone would've taken a couple of hours! Later it dawned on me: maybe someone was using my emotions to create another parallel time line in which the wallet was lost and made all 3 of us to jump from one timeline to another. I thought: "Don't we have enough of them (timelines)? Why do aliens need more of them, if Parallel Timelines would have to come to the main timeline by the end of the Planetary Game any way?"
In Toronto, Canada we visited Niagara Falls, which was unforgetable. It was a dream comes true for me, because nothing would impress me so much, but the power of water.
Mind Controllers continue to drive us totally insane, especially in the airports of major cities.
In Los Angeles, on the day of departure Robert (a Montauk boy) was doing crazy things on Venice Beach (one of the most weird, negatively charged places of USA, though it's hard to detect it). He had a habit to insist on swimming in the ocean at the day of the departure, no matter what. Then he was abducted and reappeared totally crazy when it was almost too late to board the plane. Robert was constantly saying at the airport that he wanted to suicide by opening the door in the plane (suicidal commands after the abduction), making everyone very nervous, especially us. After the fight with the Councils and my speech at the Parliament House I was on the list, so it didn't surprise me at all that policemen were intimidating me in the plane and at the airport. I didn't like it. All three of us were taken of the flight. The main blow was directed into me, threats continued, but I wasn't behaving the way they wanted me to behave: shake from fear! We were told that without a medical evaluation stating that Robert was sane enough to fly, the authority wouldn't let Robert to fly to Australia. Eventually we ended up in the airport hotel (the place felt like Hell). I was so pissed off with Robert's behavior that the next morning I told the medical authorities that they could keep Robert in Los Angeles forever, that I didn't need him. They didn't expect such a turn of events, they though that as a mother I was addicted to my son and I would do anything in order to keep him with me. Robert was 17 already. But there is a limit to any patience! To my total surprise, as soon as I said that, psychiatrist quickly gave a written permission saying that Robert was fit to fly. It wasn't difficult to connect the dots: Robert's mind manipulation was coming from the same source and with the same goal: to break my Spirit through my son's crazy behaviour. I thought that, Robert, I gave birth to, was exchanged for a clone with a part of the original soul, I didn't know anything about Alters then. Not to have Robert as a spy and a torturer for me would've been unthinkable for Secret Society members. Having Robert and my husband to drag me back into the Game was ideal for the NWO and those who are helping them (I was thinking then). It seemed that aliens were surprised that I no longer had connection to my son and my husband and stopped being their savior, that made it harder for them to manipulate me through them. All through the rest of the journey I was observing the most bizarre behavior of a human: my son. The purpose was to show me what they, the Low Astrals were capable of doing.  The list is to long to mention, but nevertheless we safely came back to Australia.
That trip, probably, was one of the most distinct changes in the pattern of my life. I was 56 years of age then. I chose a Rocky road .
In 2003 I finished reading the first (blue) version of M 5 and what was surprising that in a few months I completely forgot about what I've read in it (the result of mind control).
I noticed that a part of the programming is to make us to do nasty things to friends, relatives or just people (by the use of arificially created negative Alters, so we would be carring that guilt for many years and it would be harder for us to spiral out of the Game. I had that guilt for years, but not anymore.
I was used in 'Love Bite' experiments, without me knowing that (for more info about this kind of experiments see our link  Eve Lorgen info ). Years later in Australia I read in Eve Loren's book: " Tagging experience of an abductee takes the form of an actual injection or inserted tracer (implant), which as a ritualistic 'bite' much like an insect or a snake bite and leads to changes of the person's normal relationships, of their metabolism, of life force, of their mental state and brainwaves especially after several abductions in many years or in vivid dreams with all kind of interactions: verbal, physical, sexual". I also didn't know that the same could happen to homosexual - lesbian couples and that often only one partner would remember the meeting (the other might not) and when meeting in real life they would have an instant sense of recognition and 'falling in love' and than one of the partners would be switched off, causing the other one going crazy. That made a lot of sense to me. l had plenty of it with my boyfriends. And not just that. I've seen so many people around me were going through the same tortures (inc. my huband and my son). This subject have been very popular in the movies and books of different cultures. According to Eve Loren's observations first, the connection was like 'soul immersion', then it would turn into mental exhaustion and plain stupidity: memory loss, obsession, jealozy and posessiveness, loss of self-esteem and desire to please the partner by dressing better, putting make-up on, having a plastic surgery or doing things for him. 'Love' affairs were nothing but insertion of a tagging implant into my physical body and transporting a small amount of my auric energy into an auric energy field of a male (during abduction of both of us) to make a male to be crazy about me. Or to do the same to a male: take a bit of his auric energy and insert it into my auric energy field to make me crazy about that male. The materials I've read on the subject and TV series " Taken " in 2006 helped me to understand the situation.
I started reading "Matrix 5" Golden edition in 2004 and learned from that book and "Handbook for a New Paradigm" the difference between watcher and observer. I definately wasn't a watcher. Watcher prefers to stay in the Game, observer is trying to spiral out of it. I was definately spiraling out of it. Watcher is passive, but doesn't hesitate to use the observations for playing in the Game. Observer is active and trying to use the observations for personal growth.
I found it great, because I was already doing it!


 
In 2003 all three of us went to David Icke's conference to Brisbane, which was organized in the most negative part of the city - central University. I love listening to David Icke's audiocassettes, he makes me laugh. And I also find his books and videos a tremendous help, but the frase "I love the Queen" in "The Biggest Secret" was a bit contradictory to what he wrote in that book. It was good to have someone of his calibre giving a lecture in isolated Australia. The conference was very successful: there were a lot of people there. But what I later realised, that this conference took place in one of Parallel Universes.
Many times in my later years I found that people scared of me for no reason (like now they are scared of Robert for just looking at girls). I connected the dots: wernicke's commands inserted in Robert's and other people' s brains; this is a very powerful technique used in mind control. I had nothing against people and later turned it into having fun. Now I know why: because I was surrounded by aliens without knowing it, they were scared of me. They very well knew who I was, but I, for most of my life, thought they were humans just like me. I learned how much pain they can give you by doing many nasty things to you or simply by touching you at energetic points. But that is a part of the Planetary Game. 
I've read somewhere that for a Scorpio sex is one of the most difficult loops to overcome. That's exactly right! I still have no knowledge of Astrology and, like Robert Monroe, have no desire to spend time on it. I lived a lot of time in a female's body and naturally know more how to live and what to expect from living in a female's body (than in a male body).
After many years of observing these things in life I came to conclusion that aliens are afraid of gifted psychic females, because these females know how to distinguish an alien from a human. I was always wondering why human females mature faster than males, why their bodies are usually more tolerant to hardships and pain, why are they more psychic overall compare to human males? A male is a 'giver of life' according to Matrix 5 author, but what role an awakened human female is playing in life than? And again, according to Matrix 5 author, females are live incubators for fetuses and nothing else. This ideology smelled like Sirian propaganda, supported by all negatives: alien and human.
I know that aliens would do everything in their power to destroy sexual chakra in human females, to make sure that these particular females would not see the Game for what it is, not be able to see and feel the difference between an alien and a human. Alien attention has always been concentrating on the destruction of females' womb (the area of the sexual chakra): either removing it surgically or at least making it numb or painful by inserting metal objects or michrochips into the womb or having abortions/miscarriges. The best solution for NWO to achieve desirable results is to create Mind-controlled Sex- Slaves out of the most psychic children, to promote: sex with human/alien of the opposite gender (often with Reptilian males), marriages, pregnancies, abortions, giving birth to children, creating miscarrages and periods.
I was thinking : "We know from wars through the history of our planet: what would human males do after the slaughter of other males? Rape all human females and their daughters, especially young ones and not just once, to destroy the ability of the womb (sexual chakra) to work as an antenna. Human males have been raised to act violently.
This is my observation: periods (menstrual cycles) and miscarriages in females are artificially induced states !!! They are not natural, they are the results of constant alien interference with the wombs to get fetuses out once or twice a month and to destroy sexual chakras of all human females to stop them from SEEING, starting from 5 to11 years of age.
Even some alien females in human bodies could have periods! Human females are considered hens or cows by negatives, to milk them of their energies. We are getting eggs from chooks, aliens are getting fetuses and vital energies from human  females. I know that from my personal experience.
Being a future Graduate, I was obviously heavily involved in abduction scenario as well as my mother, sister, brother and my son. I sleep alone in the room since 17 and I've been noticing triangular marks, scoops, needle punctures, ulsers, inflammations, bruises, scars and burn marks on my body and in my mouth, tongue and teeth appearing
overnight for all my life. That would make anyone think even if the most of the memory is erased. Well, all my spiritual chakras were completely destroyed. I was heavily programmed to have heterosexual relationships for all of my life in this body, except for the last 8 years, when I finally overcame that loop, but the destruction is still continues. Negatives don't want me to see the developments on planet Earth.
You can/could talk about Germans, Russians, Chinese, English, Americalns and other nations freely, but not about Jews. Why?
When I lived in Russia I was surprised to see one Jewish member in my family among non Jews in my family.
My mother managed to keep him away from us. But when I finally moved into my own flat he rang me up to offer me 'help' in arranging the things for me and that was strange (after 20 years of absence). He fell down on the floor with the ladder trying to nail a picture on the wall. He didn't hurt himself, but was pretty shaken. I couldn't stop laughing. I've never seen him ever again. Now I know that My Higher Self arranged that, to get rid of another handler.
I've noticed pretty early that all through my life: me and my family were surrounded by Jews, like we were a magnet for them, who would often bring us a trouble. I counted about a hundred of Jews, who's been trying to become my personal handler and through the books I found that I was not the only one whom Jews have been constantly monitoring. I was always surprised why a news article in Russia or abroad can critizise any nationality in the World, but hardly ever Jews (negative aliens often chose Jewish and Arien bodies to incarnate). They would create a world's hurricane!
I've been watching their behaviour in the USSR for years (and even now) and came to the conclusion that their 'Fame' is well justified. 99% of them is still the same like hundrens years ago: overly religious on the surface, dominiring, selfish, greedy for everything physical, material and for power/control in any form. They penetrated all the religions and societies. It was always like Jews were separate from anyone else. Their desire to dominate everyone else in the USSR (and even now, in modern Russia) was never approved by Russians and other nationalities living in other Republics.
(I can't say that all Jews are that way, the same I say that not all Reptilians are that way: Service to Self. There is a tiny percentage of the renegade, which I hope will increase with Earth Changes). But they are not the only race of 'Chosen People'. White Arian race also consider themselves 'Chosen People' and I've seen and read about a lot of negative stuff coming from them also. Out of curiosity I've read a few articles about Jews 'Chosen people' and parts of their Talmud (Jewish bible) and found Talmud very Reptilian oriented. Hardly any race loved Jews in the former Soviet Union and made jokes about their behavior and the reason for that was: their alien behaviour, STS - Service to Self. Jews have been like a separate caste in every nationality of former Soviet Union (more than 50 nationalities with their own languages). It is hard to find an honest Jew. Over the years I've been puzzled to find hundreds of Jewish and Arien children born in non Jewish  and non Arien families, but in the families of other nationalities and white race (Arien?) children to be born in Jewish families and on the contrary: Jewish children being born in Arien families. Blending Jews with other nationalities was to make other nationalities to be more tolerant towards Jews and their dealings. 
Reminds me a parasitic bird cuc - koo , who makes other birds to raise its nestlings, by throwing other birds' eggs out of their nests and placing its own egg into them. It was almost impossible to find in the former Soviet Union a Jewish soldier, bricklayer, streetsweeper, toilet cleaner and the like; but there were/are plenty of not very bright generals, actors, artists, musicians, bankers, judges, media/industry controllers, doctors or politicians. That gave Jews a head start to penetrate all countries and take control of them financially. Noone in the world has been able to critizise Jews without being punished somehow, why?
Most of Australian politicians also have Jewish faces, why? I've seen it with my own eyes! More than 50 years of propaganda of 'Jews were the only nation murdered in concentration camps during WW 2' made me nearly vomit and many believed this outright lie. The Holocast fairy tale is still constantly on TV to promote pity for Jews, but when Jews go to Israel for a holiday, they themselves would write what a good time they had there: the food, the entertainment, the hotels and the Mediterranian sea beaches!
10 years ago I thought :"What hypocrites! How do Jews manage to fool the World for so long , sucking the money from other nations for their personal gain, building Israel armies with the help of USA and fighting the whole world?"
Each time I would open the biggest Webster's dictionary with pictures in it and I find only Jewish faces of the most 'significant' people in the history of the Humankind looking at me. Why? Don't we have heroes of other nationalities who deserves being included into this dictionary? That is how I thought then, but now I look at it more like a game.
Another observation. There is an identical behavior of most of Russian Jewish females and American Jewish females especially in New York (I've been there 3 times) and this is the pattern of an Orionized female, which spreaded all over USA and most of the World. I know that from my own experience: I (one of my Alters) was imitating Jewish (Orionized) behaviour for many years myself, till I finally broke that loop! How can you talk about these things if you never experienced it yourself? That is why I am talking about it now and I know that millions would agree with me.
And, as usual, the Jews penetrated Igor Charkovsky's movement. They were heavily involved in 'helping' the Russian leader, but never delivered underwater themselves.
Why can we talk officially about other nationalities and still can't talk about Jews especially these days? Why are they so fucking special, I thought? Having full support of Orion Empire they (and members of secret societies) can do whatever Reptilian Empire wants them to do. After I made a thorough analysis I was shocked to see that all my life I was surrounded by Jews (human, alien) constantly monitoring, programming and interfering with my life in different disguises. And not just with me with other members of my family: my mother, brother, sister and my son. I personally can distinguish them among white Nordic races like Swedes, English, French, German, Russians, white Americans and Australians, but I'm not capable to differ them from Asian, Arab, Indian, South American, African, Aborigine, American Indians etc.
I was always wondering why Princess Ann and Prince Charles looked so Jewish? American Hollywood has been always financially in the hands of Jews, providing 'wonna be actors/actresses' Jews with jobs and the Media has been flooded with Jews, who, very rarely was/is a good actress/actor, though they have been trying to make the world beLIEve how 'brilliant' and 'gifted' they were/are compare to other races. None of their paintings had any true value, but often sold at auctions for millions of dollars. The same applies to their music: little, what they composed has any value, but often to make themselves to be wor-sheeped, they would stick their name to the work of someone else. I remember been exposed to boring, greyish revolutionary, communist's songs written by hundreds of Jewish 'composers/poets/singers' for 30 years. There was no life in their 'art'. You need to gain deep emotions and painful experiences to be brilliant in Arts, but that is exactly what they don't like and don't want. Even their 'famous' Einstein was not liked by Tesla and many scientists found a lot of false information propagated by  Enstein. Tesla done so much and anybody hardly knows him, Einstein, onthe contrary done very little and became a household name. You open lots of books physics or other subjects and you will read constant references: Einstein said this or Einstein wrote that, like he is the smartest man on Earth, which is far from the Truth. Apart from that there is a book about Einstein, where the author is writing about Einstein's wife, who was also a Physisist, whose ideas were used by her husband. These facts will be known to everyone pretty soon, because noone would be able to pretend in the place we are going to.
It's still the Game and it is still on, but not for long. I used to be cranky with Jews, but not any more: I am a stage higher now.
There is a good website: http://www.shanghai-jews.com , the page devoted to history of settlement of Jews in Shanghai, China before, during and after the World War 2. The way Jews settled in China was the same way they settled everywhere. And I repeat, that I know that maybe our Higher Selves have Jews as their parts, as they have some alien parts.
Today I saw an article about  Jews dealings on Internet,  Australian Bigpond and posted here for you to read:

http://bigpondnews.com/articles/TopStories/2009/02/04/Pope_must_clarify_Holocaust_stance_300149.html






Wednesday, February 04, 2009 » 01:25pm

German Chancellor Angela Merkel called on Pope Benedict XVI to make a 'very clear' rejection of Holocaust denials after a former bishop was rehabilitated by the Vatican.
Her rare and public demand came amid increasing outrage among Germany's Roman Catholic leaders over the Pope's decision to lift the excommunication of British-born Richard Williamson, who questioned whether six million Jews were gassed during the Nazi Holocaust.
Merkel said she 'does not believe' there has been adequate clarification of the Vatican's position on the Holocaust amid the firestorm of controversy that broke out after Williamson's rehabilitation by the German-born pope.
Benedict last week expressed 'full and indisputable solidarity' with Jews and warned against any denial of the horror of the Holocaust, but several leading German bishops have decried the German-born Pope's decision and called for Williamson's rehabilitation to be revoked.
'I do not believe that sufficient clarification has been made,' Merkel said.
The Vatican moved quickly to counter Merkel's suggestion.
'The Pope's thinking on the subject of the Holocaust has been expressed very clearly,' said Vatican spokesman Reverend Federico Lombardi.
He cited Benedict's visit to a synagogue during his first visit to Germany as Pope in 2005, a visit to Auschwitz in 2006 and his remarks during last week's general audience.
Lombardi quoted from what he called the Pope's 'unequivocal words' at that public audience.
'I hope that the memory of the Shoah leads humanity to reflect on the unpredictable power of evil when it conquers the heart of men,' he quoted the pope as saying.
'May the Shoah be a warning for all against oblivion, against denial or reductionism.'
Lombardi said that during the audience 'the Pope himself clearly explained the purpose of lifting the excommunication, which has nothing to do with any legitimisation of positions denying the Holocaust, which were clearly condemned' by Benedict.
The issue is particularly sensitive in Germany, where denial of the Holocaust is a crime and Roman Catholic leaders have worked hard to restore relations with the Jewish community.
As a young man in Germany, Benedict, then called Joseph Ratzinger, served briefly in the Hitler Youth corps.
Cardinal Karl Lehmann, the bishop of Mainz, called for an apology from 'a high level'.
'There must also be consequences for those who are responsible for this,' Lehmann said in an interview with broadcaster Suedwestfunk of the decision to rehabilitate Williamson.
Williamson was consecrated by the late ultraconservative Archbishop Marcel Lefebvre without papal consent.
The Holy See has said that removing the excommunication did not imply the Vatican shared his views.
Williamson, in an interview broadcast last month on Swedish state television, said historical evidence 'is hugely against six million Jews having been deliberately gassed in gas chambers as a deliberate policy of Adolf Hitler'.
He cited what he called the estimates of the most serious revisionists that 'between 200,000 and 300,000 perished in Nazi concentration camps, but not one of them by gassing in a gas chamber.'

There is an article from "The Daily Telegraph", London, October 11, 1995. I just give you some extract from it:


By Dr. Michio Kaku

"...Even as scientists hail ever more accurate tests of Einstein's theory of warped space, Einstein himself knew that his theory broke down at the instance of the Big Bang. The theory had feet of clay.
Relativity was worthless, he realized, when it came to answering the most embarassing cosmic question in all of the science: "What happened before the Big Bang? Ask any cosmologist this question, and they will throw up their hands, roll their eyes, and lament: "This maybe forever beyond the reach of science. We just don't know...
There are two dominant religious mythologies. According to Judaeo-Christian beLIEf, the universe had a definite beginning. This is the Genesis hypothesis, in which the universe was hatched from a Cosmic Egg. However, according to the Hindu-Buddist belief in Nirvana, the universe is timeless; it never had a beginning, nor will it have an end...
However, I can calculate the probability that one day you might be walking down the street, only to fall into a hole in space and enter a Parallel Universe...

In year 2000 I remember a strange incident which happened after I visited city's Local and Federal Government (MP's) and Police Headquaters with a lot of materials on NWO and alien activities in Bundaberg, Queensland. After talking to Federal MP, a female and showing her my materials (with the website on sale of human meat) I was surprised again to see her squeezed by fear! Why? I only asked her one question: "What are you going to do about this?!" I was still so ignorant:
I didn't know then that she was a Reptilian. I visited everyone I could and got no results. A few days later another strange incident in the centre of the city near were we live. A policeman stopped us and asked the dates of our birthdays (I was with my husband). When we told him, he became so frightened and ran away. George ran after him to ask him why he needed our full dates of birth, but couldn't reach him. I'm still puzzled.
Later in 2003 I had another real sign of Synchronicity. 'Accidentally' I found a book of Carloc Castaneda "The Art Of Dreaming" which was bought years ago and I never was interested in it before. Reading it got me out of the Spiritual cul-de-sac I was in. Just after a few pages I became hooked on Castaneda. Read all his books in English twice and in Russian later. All the thoughts I've written so far are the thoughts I had at the time, but they obviously changed: I became wiser.
In 2003 my new passion became books of Carlos Castaneda. I found a lot of wisdom and fun reading them, the only thing I couldn't handle (it didn't match wth R.Monroe information) was the fact that most of us after death were joining an Eagle Force and only powerful sorcerers could avoid it and live on for a thousand of years or more. Most of them have been secretly serving Orion Empire to this day. I learned mavelous things from those books, about female role in the Sorcerer's world (though still thoroughly covered), but not much about the origin of the Eagle Force.
It is still a very obsecure subject, but knowing how popular an image of Eagle is with secret societies, I later connected the dots. Usually, when it is a secret, it smells negative: service to self; humans would be used for greed and power of selected groups of humans and negative aliens. But even this way and with great difficulty Balance can be spread. Later I found more hidden defects with C.Castaneda's books. I also noticed that there was no picture of this writer in any of his books: someone was interested in hiding his true personality.
I didn't know then, that books of Castaneda would make me to start writing newsletters to Tensegrity practitioners all over the World. In 2004 I joined Cleargreen organization based on the teachings of Carlos Castaneda (the main, tiny centre is in Los-Angeles). The branches of it are in every major city and it's spreading like cancer all over the Earth. Many things I've learnt from these books were very useful to me at that point of my development (like Recapitulation). I liked the books a lot, but coudln't understand the contradictions with other books I was reading. Castaneda was kind of separate from everyone else. His books were not connecting (at least I couldn't connect them), not adding to the mutial common flow of other books I read. That what I thought then, but later I could connect them to the knowledge of other books.
I've never read about 'Flyers', 'Assembledge point', 'Eagle Force' anywhere else. But don't claim to read all the literature in the world.
I was doing magical passes and recapitulation a lot and felt great! I wanted to meet other practitioners all over the Globe.

In February 2004 I arrived to Los Angeles to participate in Tensegrity workshop for the first time and, of course, I was very excited. There is worldwide Cleargreen organization supposedly based on C.Castaneda books and ideology and their workshops are called Tensegrity workshops.
The hotel, where I stayed was a 10 min. walk to the ultra - modern Conventional Centre near Disney World (cluster of negative places) in Anaheim area (sounds very Jewish), where Tensegrity seminar was suppose to take place. I was puzzled, why the seminar was organized in the most negative city area, instead of somewhere outside city, in the country , like where usually Don Juan's apprentices inc. Carlos would practice Magical Passes? The morning of the seminar arrived and to my horror I couldn't get up from bed. Extremely low frequencies of electromagnetic stream of rays nailed me to the bed making me very sick. Someone obviously did not like the idea of me going to the Seminar and I knew that Negative forces use all kind of weapon and powerful mind - controling techniques to badly affect or kill people at a distance.The thought of coming from Australia specially to attend this seminar and fail, because of these fucking Rays, made me very angry! I forced myself to walk to the Convention Centre where a Congress devoted to babies took place the same day only on another floor. I was astonished to see hundreds of young females pushing prams with babies through the main entrance of the Convention Centre to participate in that Show! Finally I got where I wanted: big Hall, where the workshop was about to take place. Through an incredible pain, I started Magical passes with the crowd of practitioners. And only in the crowd I felt a relief from excruciating pain. It was probably diffcult for the Negatives to expose me to the Rays while moving in the crowd. Next shock I got after a couple of lousy speeches female and male instructors gave to the pactitioners, which had no value in Castaneda's books and the most important issues were simply avoided! We were doing floor magical passes, which have never been mentioned by Castaneda in his books or in the book "Magical Passes", supposedly based on Castaneda's passes, but printed after his death.
I disliked lying on my back with open legs for 20 min.,(reminded me sex, abductions and abortions). That gave the opportunity for the instructors to choose the most spiritually gifted girls and guys from the participants for their agenda (and for Low Astrals to have intercourse with you while you were in this position ). "This is the most vulnerable position for a warrior " I thought and got up, then found a chair and started observing the whole 'show'. At the interval I told the instructors about my disappointment with the seminar and a desire to ask the instructor 3 questions at the questions time. Then one instructor said to the other: " Oh, you wouldn't get rid of this one!"
They 'agreed' to give me this opportunity, but took all the microphones and speakers out just before the questions time started. Without a microphone noone could hear me (all the walls and the floors were carpeted).They also moved all 3 groups away from me, obviously scared of my questions. I was devastated and did not press any further, everything was clear to me: Cleargreen as organization was cheating naive practitioners. They were not there to propagate noble ideas of Carlos Castaneda, they had more sinister agenda (I thought then). There were other things I noticed there which only confirmed my realization that I was such a fool to beLIEve in Cleargreen. But I still trust most of C.Castaneda's ideas.
I was very confused, but later, the same year I would attend other 2 Tensegrity Seminars in the same year 2004, to make sure, that my first impression was correct.                                                                                                                                                                                                                       
In Jew- lie  2004 my husband and I went to Jew-pan and then to Holland, Jew-many, France, Bel-jew-m, Switzerland.
In Hamster-dump (Amsterdam) we had a Tensegrity workshop, met a few Ass-tralians there. It was pretty boring again.
The same 'witless' exercise ('witness' exercise), Lightsiders stuff, meant to share your thoughts, dreams and experiences with a stranger who was next to you.
"What if this person was an informant who was working for Cleargreen?" I thought and felt a lot of negativity generated in the Hall. It was clear to me: negative Orion Empire got their hands into that organization too, and not just Cleargreen, but all Martial Arts organizations all over the Globe; it's enough just to look at their symbols (a snake). I didn't play that game, so
I was mostly observing.
Another favorite activity of Cleargreen 'instructors' was to advise their members to write to them about their spiritual achievements, dreams, thoughts, impressions of workshops and actions of the instructors. Reminds me confessions in a church and promotion of informers. I saw that as another trap.
"That's exactly what Reptilians want: to keep an eye and to tighten sequrity screws on you even more" I thought and gave the instructors a letter of my impressions of Los Angeles' workshop, I'd prepared for "Cleargreen" .
I really didn't give a shit and described the shock I had when I saw how far all those beautiful, noble ideas from the books of Castaneda deviate from the reality of workshops. The whole workshop was a real Spectacle!
I looked at the 'instructors': that was a joke! This time they were not the same ones; they looked pathetic: one of them was a overweight Jewish guy (most likely from Hollywood), who could hardly move the body, but nevertheless was trying to teach us Magical Passes, which he hardly knew. Another 'instructor' looked like a very old female, whose energy was failing! Then these 'instructors' gave us 'a Jewish musical performance'.
What is surprising to me now that they showed a sequence of Passes of 'mixing female and male energies' (2 different genders) together, but at that time I had no desire to mix my energy with someone else's inc. my husband's. I felt like I was playing some role in a theatre. Everything felt shitty, I felt out of place.
After Amster-damn Tensegrity workshop, in August, George and I visited a few countries in Europe, the last was Switzerland. We were flying out of Zoo-rich airport where I filmed a huge photo (3m long by 2m wide) of a face of a pretty European girl who had eyes with Vertical Slits like a snake or a crocodile or some cats. This photo was hanging on the wall , where hundreds of people could see it !
It was for the first time that I saw such a thing in public (we still have the video). Nobody paid any attention, except George: he made a hissy fit that I videotaped it! It made me wonder about popular show "Cats" , who is really on the stage? In this reality aliens are using black glasses to cover their vertical slits, but in the movie "They live" humans were using dark glasses to see aliens mixed with a crowd of humans. Later I've read in "Dulce Papers" that such glasses could be bought for $ 2000, but I didn't know where to buy. "Fashion to wear dark glasses and vertical slit contact lenses was created by negatives to confuse us even more" I thought. "Secret Societies' members wouldn,t hang this picture in the airport for nothing" I assumed. It looked like a signal for exposing themselves: time was pressing them too.
I knew that all this time exchanging Earth humans for hybrids with more Reptilian genetics was taking place.
I was thinking: " Struggle of our Universe against Itself is not expressed just in a form of planets or races or worlds fighting against each other, but for us this struggle was concentrated on Earth, where It started from Nature of Earth, then countries, organizations, people in the same country, neighbours, members of the family, even in our own body there was an opposition: foregn installations, genetic commands and michrochips were opposing our true mind, right side was opposing our left side of the body and our left hemisphere of the brain was opposing our right hemisphere. Creative abilities are the result of the struggle with opposition. Creative abilities come from experiencing a lot of pain: physical and emotional".
At least that I knew from personal experience. I was staggered when I learnt that we were not just fighting the implanted , parasitised, chemically, radioactively and electromagnetically poluted, mind-controlled physical bodies. But also the negative effects coming from other bodies around the physical (etheric, emotional, mental, astral, celestial etc.) full of holographic inserts in the most important major and minor centres. And our Spirit was still winning!
 
As soon as we came back to Ass-tralia , we joined Oztec and I've written a few Newsletters to members of Oztec, the Australian branch of  "Cleargreen"), in 2004. I was choosing a rocky road. I needed to use Internet, but before that I had no interest in Internet. In these Newsletters I was describing the knowledge I got and experience I gained. That was the only way to find someone on the same wavelength. It didn't make Moderators very happy but I still got some response. I had to do it even though George was against it. But for me that was another experience preparing me for my own future website, a way to express myself and get out of cul-de-sac I put myself in by marriage to an alien. After a couple of months the Moderators disconnected me from Oztec website.
 
My last Tensegrity workshop took place on 7th and 8th November, 2004 (surprisingly on the days of the Revolution of 1917, a negative day and an old 'holiday' , when everything's closed). These workshops have been very popular with Russians. C.Castaneda books are translated into Russian and Italian by computer and have a lot of twisting of ideas (but Monroe books have been only computer-translated into Russian with the same faults).
They have been using trained Russian females as Instructors under a supervision of an American female, whom everyone was wor-sheeping. And again a sense of enourmous boredom as soon as they started the same 'Witless excise', their not very inspiring lectures and Passes. What I described was my own opinion, because I had high expectations from those workshops; others might have different opinion about the same workshop: all depends how evolved you are.
After meeting a few proclaimed young Russian wonna be 'sorcerers' and talking to them I started thinking:
"How naive all these youngsters are, they remind me sheep!" And later:" Was the feeling of boredom manufectured artificially, just to make me to leave that place earlier or was plain boring for me?"
I was amazed, how Reptilians could very cleverly hide their agenda behind wonderful ideas  . The stuff members of Cleargreen (like any government) are using beautiful words like Freedom, Love , Equality and some words from "Matrix 5" in their emails to the members to attract people familiar with wording of "Matrix 5" !
I was wondering: "How many true human members were among wonna be 'warriors' of Cleargreen organization? There was around a thousand on the mailing list around the World. Inspite of my frank letter, I've been still getting Cleargreen's  newsletters with invitations for workshops with names like: "Sister Moon, Brother Sun" or " Predator's Eye " (read Death star) and all the bullshit which came with it .
I remember a powerful Deja vu in Switzerland in summer of 2004 . George and I went to see one of the highest peaks of Alps, Materhorn, which we've never seen before (not too far from Interlaken). We got to the highest level of that mountain by the lift and got out to see the view, then when we queued to get inside of the building the memory of that place hit me.
I knew that I've been here before !!! This mountain and all their High Tech set up: lifts, buildings, chairlifts etc. felt very alien.
I found the same with Australian Snowy mountains' ski resorts like Thredbo, Jinderbine, Blue Cow etc. The energy was so bad that instead of 3 days of skiing we managed only half a day the last time we were there. No wonder: Canberra, the capital of Australia is a part of Snowy Mountains. That made me think:"Are all famous ski resorts have alien bases underneath and modernised skiing is just a bait to attract more humans to that place?"
2 years later, in the summer I went to Russia and apart from visiting Moscow, a female friend and I went to Russian's favorite desination: Sochi and Adler on Black Sea fro a couple of weeks. Then I went by myself to the local Caucasus mountains to see the lake and the famous and very modern ski resort "Krasnaya Polyana". After spending a few hours in the forest around the ski resort I found a couple of similar strange places, set ups: tents, some tourists equipment, many faded clothes/shoes and other belongings, covered with dust and no people around, as if they were abducted or rushed from the place, hurriedly leaving everything behind. This place had/has a Portal to other dimensions. There are many Portals in Caucasus Mountains and where you see military actions are taking place, there you will find them: Kosovo, Afganistan, Chechya, South Osetia, Iraq, Israel, Palestina to name a few.
Now I know why Sochi was chosen for 'Winter Olympics' in 2014. I doubt that there will be any 'Olympics', because we are getting close to 2012. This is just an excuse for the Russian KGB/FSB government to reinforce, to modernise the part of the Caucasus mountains around Sochi move masses of people to different densities/dimensions/worlds.
 
Coming back to the 3rd workshop, which I visited by myself.
Year later on my other trip to Moscow in Jew-lie 2005 I stopped in Dubai, United Arab Emirates for a 3 days. At Dubai's airport the true Syncronicity took place: while standing in a queue I had a brief encounter with a young Indian guy. We exchanged our email addresses, his email address consisted of a name and 999. Later I realized that he had connection to my cluster!  
All the trips to Russia in recent years showed me big changes of life in former Soviet Union, like cities as Moscow,  Sochi, Petersburg, Murmansk, Caucasus mountains and Black Sea, cities of Volga river.
George came to Moscow in September to join me for William Buhlman's workshop in USA , for which we paid in advance. From Moscow we went to Amster-damn, Holland. At Moscow airport's check point 3  females wanted to confiscate our Takyon Capsules on our necks. I asked for a superviser. The superviser came and asked me about the purpose of Takyon Capsule. I had to tell him that it was a 'Masonic Symbol' and he let us keep them (he, probably, was a Russian mason) and we got through with them.
In Amster-dump's negatives created a lot of problems for us. Then we went to New York and for the first time I had my eyes scanned and my fingerprints taken (apart from usual body and luggage scan). I felt Draconian World Order there more than anywhere else.
I love New York and felt at home there: it gave me a lot of hidden memories of the places, especially Greenwich village and Brooklin. I noticed that whenever Reptilans don't want me to see something on my travels they would attack my bladder, so I would be running like mad looking for a toilet. That happened in Central Parks of New York, Paris, London, Brussel, Moscow, in cities of Jew-many and Switzerland. While in New York we got a message of Buhlman's Workshop cancelation (10 days before the actual workshop)! We were shocked because we'd arranged everything and came to USA specially for that reason. Why? I was suspicious again: someone again didn't want me to see what that workshop was all about or maybe because I was with George? Me and George read Buhlman's books twice and were eager to learn practically how to Astral travel. The organizers of the workshop, in their emails were using 'God bless you' sometimes, which made me suspicious, if it was not some religious workshop, without William Buhlman. He kind of disappeared first to China, then Australia and where is he now I don't know.
After a week in New York we went to Chicago by bus overnight, as been planned, from the Central Bus Station in New York. The bus was packed. A Negro busdriver was implementing Martial Law right on the spot, in the bus, by giving all of us an aggressive and lengthy speech what we must and mustn't do (the demonstration was, probably, because I was there). That was new to me and I thought: "Do all American bus drivers act like that these days?" What was refreshing though , that a group of Negroes was sitting at the back making fun of the busdrive, kind of counteracting the atmosphere which had been created. Every his word and gesture was comically copied by negro - passengers and a constant laughter was so pleasing to my ears. And I thought: "It's so nice to know that not everyone in USA lost their sense of humour!" 
Upon our arrival to Chicago we hired a car and went for a week of exploration of lake Michigan area, while at it. From Chicago we flew to Minniapolis and hired a car again to explore the city and the countryside. We visited very masonic touristy place "House - on - the Rock". It felt like a place of human sacrifices with 'Infinity room' being an altar. The Negative energy of that place was overwhelming. It was mainly underground: many rooms and big halls, stuffed with all kind of material posessions.
800 km of countryside looked almost lifeless. It reminded me Australia: forests , hills , roads , houses with almost no people.

Our next flght was to Vancouver, Canada. In Minniapolis airport I had my main event (October, 2005, I'm 58), that happened like a powerful dream. The negativity of airports in USA is tremendous. After checking in our luggage, George and I went to another hall for our body and personal luggage examination. While standing in the queue a policeman came to us:               "You've been randomly selected" he told us and pointed to a separate room with a separate group of security personel, x-ray machine and a metal gate we were suppose to go through. I had a bad feeling that something was cooking up, that didn't surprised me after a few attacks we'd experienced in Malasia, Russia, Holland, New York and Chicago). Negative Aliens and those who are helping them definately didn't want me to travel.
We were asked to take the shoes and coats off and I thought: "Next time we would have to go naked through that fucking gate!" Our personal luggage (camera, wallets etc. ) went through x-ray machine. Then I noticed that one of the personel was smearing some jelly on the wallets and handles of bags and camera (like in Heathrow airport 3 years ago). I told George to pay attention on it a few times and then asked the guy to stop it. That created a scandal. I told a bunch of security personel that they were helping Reptilians in creating Martial Law on the whole planet and other things. They called the police, who turned up in no time, probably monitoring me all this time from some place else.
We were saying that we didn't like an unknown substance to be put in our shoes and smeared all over our personal things. I wondered what it was. A negro policeman (Reptilian) looked at my picture in my passport and asked my name. Silly question demands a silly answer: he knew very well who I was, he had my name written and my picture in front of him and my full life-story on his computer, before he stoped me.
"Uncle Sam" I said. He had a hissy fit and I was accompanied by 3 policemen in hand - cuffs, bearfeet through the whole airport. While walking I was telling them what I really thought about Orion Empire (usually emotions make me to say what I think and I don't give a shit about the consequences) and that I had lived my life and I was not afraid of death and that they could kill me any time. I knew too much about life after death and was ready to vacate for a long time. Deep inside I hoped that they would do it to finish my torments. I felt like I was cheating my Total Self.
"We are not going to kill you !" one of them said. That stopped me, I couldn't believe it and started laughing. I understood the Game, they were playing with me: the intimidation again. I wasn't a very good advertisement for them though. Imagine an old overweight woman, bearfeet, but nicely dressed in shackles laughing her lungs out all the way through the airport where hundreds of people have been watching her. I was asked if I used drugs to make me laugh. I said I didn't and as a my own doctor advised them to take nothing but water. I was locked in a small room with the small window in the door, where I was doing my feet execises and a bit off singing, not to get bored. You can't even die when you want it. Sometime later the door opened and a cautious policeman asked me a strange question: "I know how uncomfortable it feels in handcuffs. If I take them off would you behave?"
I thought: " Why was he so kind?" and said: "I always behave".
When he took off my handcuffs I noticed FEAR in his eyes and again I was puzzled: "Fear of me ?! Why? I have no fear of him and no gun?" I had a feeling that I was in another Timeline, another World.
Policemen could definetely read my thoughts. He asked me to turn around and put my hands on the wall. I thought that was a good position for push ups. I think he used taser, because when I woke up worried George turned up with the Negro policeman up appologizing that I had a sleepless night and that was the reason for my behaviour. I told them that I had a very good sleep. Then 3 policemen took us to the Departure Gate another way and shook George's hand (like they were friends). That seemed strange, like everything was staged. We were taken to the plane and flew to Canada.
I remembered R.Monroe. This was a very good example for me of Higher Self intervention!
We hired campervan in Canada and travelled in USA and Canada, then we went to Hawaii and home to Ass-tralia.
On my travels I've seen a lot of graffity in major cities of USA, Europe, Russia and Australia. I feel that major events/changes are written not only in crop circles, but also in Graffity for those who understands the language .
End of 2005 and beginning of 2006 .
"Think and do is the operating productive combination, either mentally or physically, in one or more energy systems. Inhibit , restrain or block the flow of any such energy and it ceases to exist ". These words of Robert Monroe made me to start again writing Newsletters for the members of Cleargreen in 2005, this time: to hundreds of people in different countries, all over the Globe in Russian and in English , because I thought that this bunch of people was the most prepared for this kind of writing. I hoped that my emails would get only to those who needs them (their Total Selves would see to it). I was writing my thoughts about things I've read in my materials and experienced in life"Search till you merge with your Total Self" was my motto. George was against as usual.
Robert Morningsky talked about Castaneda on one of the videos made after his workshop in Sydney in 90's (I've got them)
After reading M 5 Golden edition , vol. 1 in 2004 I watched that video again and I couldn't believe it! Robert Moaning-Sky
(half Hopi, half Appachi) was talking a lot about females, saying that they should become leaders! He was a genuine speaker. According to him, Hopi Indians always had Matriarchat and males needed to combine male and female energies by doing all housechores and upbringing children. I had totally different views about Hopi Indians before. I've read some of his materials on Internet and later posted them on my website.
Then I got my personal email address and things improved: I was becoming more and more independent from my husband till I, finally, divorced him. I met a few interesting people through Internet. 
Physically through the life I wasn't lonely, but spiritually I've been lonely for all my life.
I also met a few crossed-eyed people in my life and I found them alien from what they were saying to me. Meetings with them were always unexpected and I felt uncomfortable and disoriented. It seems logical to hide your eyes this way to make you confuse, though there are normal humans among them: this variety of experiences is valid for our Total Selves.
Arizona Wilder, Andy Pero, Cathy O'Brien and many others admited that they were forced to be involved in negative actions like masonic rituals, sex, assasinations, helping aliens to conduct genetic atrocities etc. consciously or unconsciously, willingly or unwillingly. They accepted that. Their Total Selves allowed these things to happen to them for gaining more Balance (50% positive and 50 % negative energies). It was all good to read and accept this kind of things, but when it came to my personal life it was damn hard (Lightsider loop), but I am all right now. That I, like most of the players of this Game, was having a lot of experience as Victim and Victimizer and now I am neither: I overcame that Loop.
I've also learned that all of us were doing the same (Victim-Victimizer mode) when we were aliens before we started this Planetary Game as humans, that all Graduating Higher Selves have all nationalities (inc. Jews) in their clusters for experience. Well, after reading this I became more tolerant, but alert. I was used like Arizona Wilder, Cathy O'Brien, Cisco Wheeler, Brice Taylor, Kathrine Sullivan, Pat (from "The Mars Records" by Stephanie Relfe) and many others for sinister things the memory of which was mostly erased. And I'm glad that in 2006, after many years I've accepted that. I don't want to be 100% positive Lightsider anymore.
I learned a lot from the books of Robert Monroe and I knew that our Total Selves value unique negative and positive experiences for the Balance. That was a relief!

In 2003 all 3 of us (myself, my son and my husband George)  decided to go around Australia and visit the States, which we never saw: Northern Territory, South and Western Australia. I had in mind to meet more Aborigines and wild life. We flew to Alice Spring, the capital of Northern Territory and the place of the famous Pine Gap international facility, apart from the base there is also a jail there. We hired a car to visit well known Ayers Rock and Olgas and discovered that there is another, similar and even bigger Rock a few km away from Ayers Rock. It has another name, which I forgot. And I still don't know the origins of that structure (Ayers Rock), only know that if it is a 'Sacred' with Aborigines place, it smells alien and has a peculiar, unpleasant energy.
It was really strange to see an elaborate smogasboard in the resort's restaurant a few km away from Ayers Rock in the middle of nowhere. How all that food was getting there if we didn't see planes or delivery trucks? Most likely it was done by the underground Maglev trains (Magnetic Levitation), which are criss-crossing all the continents underground and under oceans with the speed of 10000km per hour.
We tried to visit Pine Gap, but there was a forbidding sign on the road leading there (we were not invited). It was also forbidden to take pictures of Aborigines and we couldn't understand why. I suspect that there are a lot of clones and minions among them (minions are humans with animal soul). We were harassed by a group of aborigines females, who were fighting with each other in the centre of Alice Spring next to their Council as if the michrochips in their brains were triggered as soon as we turned up there. The whole place was very hot and very Reptilian and I feel it was in one of Parallel Earths.
You can go on a highway for hours and see only a couple of roadhouses with almost no cars and signs like this:

Then we flew to Adelaida, the capital of South Australia, where we again hired a car and visited the coastline and outback. It is very flat and has numerous seawater evaporating fields and I thought that the salt from these fields would be enough for more that one Earth, where does it go (probably supplying some of the Parallel Earths)? I found South Australia much more picturesque than the part of Northern Territory we visited. We found lots of people with caravans, travelling around Australia all year round (going from one Universe to another one without noticing anything), because of warm climate and lack of snow, unless in the mountains of Victoria/NSW/Tasmania in winter. We visited a few nice places there in winter time of July (it is too hot for the rest of the year), but the most enjoyable was Western Australia. We flew again to beautiful Perth, the capital of Western Australia, visited Fremantle and hired a big and comfortable Campervan, which was driven by George for the first time and quite successfully. George has never stopped surprising me with his abilities to be able to do so many different things and often teach me to do them.
We visited so many beautiful places of Western Australia like: the picturesque coastline of Southern and Indian Oceans - Albany, Denmark, Monkey Mia... 


                         George is near our boat in Bundaberg Region                 Beautiful Burnett River in our region




I've written somewhere that I didn't follow any guru in my life, but now I would say that in a way I did follow "Matrix 5" author and Val Valerian's website for a few years, till that shamanic spell was broken, but a huge blow to me had to happen in order to be released. I finally understood, that I didn't have to follow anybody. I needed to be myself: the last loop was broken!
I've posted a lot of material on this subject under "Hidden Faults of Matrix 5" on a few links of this website:  My Thoughts, My Insights; Psychology of Multiple Personality 'Disorder';  More Truths about Women;  "Matrix 5" Book Analysis;

Living on different timelines simultaneously is not easy and makes you a bit confused sometimes in terms of timing.
I don't quite remember now, but I feel that the first (blue) edition of "Matrix 5", edited by Val Valerian, I read at the end of 2003-beginning of 2004. Half of that book was George Green's "Handbook for the New Paradigm". It made some impression on me, but for some reason I quickly forgot about it. A year later I bought from Val the first volume of the new Golden edition of "Matrix 5" and found some interesting facts and some biased bullshit in it. I wrote a letter to Val about my impressions,  but he rejected it, like many other letters sent by females.
 Because the book was edited by Val Valerian, whom I trusted (I bought all his Matrix books), I started doubting my own judgement:  I got under the influence of these 2 men: the author of "Matrix 5" and Val Valerian and bought another 2 volumes. My personal views on life started changing drastically under the influence of these books. I became rougher to the females and to males in my own family. My ego inflated and I started thinking that I was above the others (one of those 'Chosen ones'), because I know much more than others. I tried to imitate the "Matrix 5's"author rude language and behaviour. I even persuaded others to read Val's website and buy "Matrix" books. Under that shamanic spell I stopped thinking independently and joined the group of "Matrix 5" followers. Though the author was constantly saying that he was not a guru, but he behaved like one and still does: he can't live without attention, without his followers, power over others (the ultimate aphrodisiac). He needs, to change into a more balanced individual.
After divorcing my husband (though I still love him) I decided to move to another State (Victoria) and which turned out to be in Bendigo: one of the cities of that state. I rented a run down house in the outskirts of the city, because I didn't have much money left, and thought I would start a new life away from radioactively polluted part of the Coast I lived in. I wanted to be independent.
George and I took our cars with small trailers, packed with my stuff and moved it from Queensland to Victoria (3000 km)  in December 2007. On the way, through the outback of Australia, we encountered an unusually powerful thunderstorm with pouring rain and cyclonic wind, but eventually we got through. Then I didn't know that that was a warning for me, but we still persisted.
The Controllers didn't like my decision to change the place and live alone. They would arranged things the way that I would eventually give up and return to that anomaly place on the coast of Queensland, where I lived before. Even that place was not an accident: I was driven to that place, because of my desire to live in anomaly place and that was what I got and now I couldn't change anything. My son and I have been too valuable assets in terms of time-travel, living simultaneously in different worlds and having so many different human and non-human personalities; the anomaly place helped to achieve it. There are many anomaly places on Earth, where the Time Fabric is broken and I named a few on this website on different links. There is also a lot of material written about anomaly places where people and objects disappear to Parallel Universes, Alternative Realities/Worlds, different Timelines.



http://bigpondnews.com/articles/National-Regional/2009/05/21/Bushfires_like_atomic_bombs_334332.html

Thursday, May 21, 2009 » 02:22pm

Devastating February bushfires that killed 173 people generated enough energy to fuel 1,500 atomic bombs, the bushfires royal commission has been told.
Bushfire behaviour analyst Dr Kevin Tolhurst told the commission the fires were like '1500 atomic bombs the size of Hiroshima'.
'It's an enormous amount of energy,' he said.
Dr Tolhurst estimated the fire moved at a speed of about 120km/h, which was about the same speed estimated on Ash Wednesday.
In some areas, the blaze spotted 35km ahead of the main fire.
Dr Tolhurst said it was important to evaluate a fire on a three dimensional level, taking into account not just surface winds but upper winds created by the plume of smoke above a fire.
He showed the commission photos of trees that had been snapped off about three to four metres above ground level in the February 7 Black Saturday bushfires by these types of winds.
'You would have needed winds of 120km/h or more to produce that,' he said.
The commission also viewed graphic footage of the Black Saturday bushfires captured by cameras at four locations around Victoria.
The cameras were controlled from Melbourne and in particular captured the Murrindindi blaze that obliterated Marysville.
The hearing continues.